Trusting the Sangha?

There are phases in life where friends drop away and new ones are brought in...times of trouble (or blessing?) where ideas long held true are seen for the lies they really are--I'm in a phase like that as I discover honesty is truely a rare quality in this world. One I don't posess as strongly as I thought. Someone is lying to me in the temple and I can't yet decide for sure who, and who (if anyone!) I can trust in this sangha. I'm learning Thai slowly, but I can't yet converse about dhamma/important/personal stuff (just travels and prices and where I'm from, mostly) so the number of people sufficiently competet in English that I can talk to is about 9/60 and NONE of them tells the same story and most of them talk sh*t about one another...it's ugly. but I guess people that are healthy and well don't often subject themselves to monastic discipline (truely, I believe people that are healthy and well have transcended this plane of existance...Earth as a cosmic insane asylum is a theory that occurred to me years ago and makes more sense to me every day). Pain is a motivator to heal, but the initial wound covering process often involves building defenses that are not healthy. Maybe they are the best efforts we know how to make to keep ourselves from immediately bleeding to death, but they're not real pretty when uncovered in the true wound cleansing process. been facing anger and reactivity in the face of confusion lately. lots of foddor for it...Seems acknowledging and intelligent reflection can help dampen these emotional waves. I keep working.